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Into the Rain
Your presence teases me,
Makes me believe that I see you
Out of the corner of my eye,
Standing in the alleyways,
Or hiding behind bookshelves.
I see a glimpse of you,
And then you're gone,
Shoulders fading from view.
Something makes me follow,
Rush to where I saw you
And look wildly for another sign
That you're still here.
I follow you through storms,
Rain so fierce it's almost blinding,
Chasing your smile only
For you to turn away and disappear
Each time I think I've found you.
When I finally catch up with you,
Just when I can't go any further,
You're somewhere I can't reach you;
You're with people I don't know,
Perched high on a balcony,
Or singing in front of a crowd,
Always just out of my grasp.
Your eyes meet mine,
And you smile,
Like you're happy to see me.
But even after I've followed you
Through all the pain you led me through,
You never come down
Into the rain
To meet me.
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I Left My Love in California Over the Weekend
It was always a weekend romance,
I only saw you for a few days.
You had a nice smile;
You'd smile at me constantly,
One side of your mouth higher than the other,
Black eyes sparkling with mischief.

"California", they said.
I just though of you:
Small town boy
Who reminded me of coffee shops,
Libraries and book stores,
Eating lunch on the pier.
Quick to make a joke, 
Have a quirky comeback,
But not too loud,
Never too loud.

You liked to hear me talk, I think.
You asked questions
Until you ran out of things to ask about.
You went away knowing more about me
Than I knew about myself.
Even so,
I still knew so little about you;
I never had the chance to ask.

Thrilling, like driving fast
Around mountain curves:
Every breath I took with you
Was an adrenaline rush.

We saw a castle,
You joked about it;
Asked if I had taken enough pictures.
Then you showed me the seals,
The elephant ones,
And said I should come back
When they were mating.
You w
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Art and Disaster
He said I was art,
But I don’t know
If he can tell
The difference
Between art
And Disaster.
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Shame on Me
Why do you always leave?
And more importantly,
Why do I always
Let you come back?
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You Were Afraid of the Dark
We held hands because you were afraid of the dark,
And we shared an umbrella that almost blew away,
Leaving us drenched and running in the rain.
We ate a carton of mint chocolate ice cream together,
And you didn’t complain because it was my favorite;
You didn’t complain because you knew it would stop
The tears stuck behind my eyelashes from falling.
We fought over stupid things that didn’t matter,
And afterwards kissed the bruises left on our arms,
Smiling like they’d disappear when we did.
I held you close after she broke your heart,
And you held me in return when suicide took my friend,
Arms tight around each other and sleeves damp
From the tears we couldn’t show the world.
But the smell of my perfume on your shirt faded
Into the smell of her favorite shampoo,
And I stepped away from you to give her room
So that she could kiss the remnants of me
From your lips.
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Watercolors Don't Go Well with Hurricanes
Your love was like watercolors.
So beautiful in the moment
That purples and pinks and blues
Covered the palms of my hands,
But disappearing as soon
As the storm came.
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You'll Miss Me One Day
You'll miss me one day,
I know you will.
You’ll miss my laugh,
And the smell of coffee
On my sweaters.
You’ll miss the way
My glasses would slip
When I was reading,
And the conversations
About art and writing;
When we’d argue
Over abstract art
And if it meant anything
Behind the surface.
You’ll miss the way
Every day was a surprise,
New colors on my clothes,
A new piece of art on the wall.
You’ll miss the way
I could always understand
How you were feeling.
Most of all, though,
I know you’ll miss my body,
Because in the end
I was just sex
To you.
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I want to write
My poems
On the pure canvas
Of your skin,
Using my lips
As the brush,
Bruises painting
My love for you.
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Friends with Benefits
What am I to you?
We were friends,
I'd like to believe
That we still are.
You were the one
Who wanted 
Nothing to change,
So why are you
Upset when I
Follow your lead
And act like
Nothing happened,
Like you wanted?
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You'd Never Notice
I'm not okay, but you'd never notice,
Probably because you only pay attention
When you need something from me.
I want to cry, but sure as hell, I wont,
I'm too proud to cry like I should,
I keep it inside until I break down,
And that's the only time you ever notice,
When it's far too late to fix anything
Between you and me.
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She was so tiny next to me
That I felt like I might break her
Simply by holding her hand.
She assured me that she wasn’t
As fragile as I thought she was,
But that was hard to believe
When my thumb and pinky
Could meet around her wrist,
And I left bruises there
By holding just a bit too tight.
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The Black and White Paintings
Your life was full of people
Painted only in black and white,
And I was a dancing palette
So full of color I was a rainbow.
Everyone I came in contact with
Was left with a piece of me,
A color smeared all on their
Perfect white clothing and skin.
The ones I touched hated me,
And would paint over my touch
With black paint until all of me
Was completely erased in nothing.
But you let me come close
And left the smear of colors,
Reds, blues, pinks, and yellows,
On you to let them sink in.
I painted your lips brilliant red
When I kissed you breathless,
And I smeared your back with
Blues of all kinds when I loved you.
But then they stared at you
And whispered about you behind
Their black little tainted hands,
Saying that I’d ruined you.
I noticed the colors I’d left on you
Beginning to fade away slowly,
And I knew that you couldn’t stay
With me where you didn’t belong.
You were still the purest human
I’d ever met, even after loving me,
So I painted you white onc
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Depression Moved In
Depression moved in
While I was sleeping,
His baggage strewn
In piles, heaping.
When I asked him
How long he meant,
He simply replied
“You should charge me rent”.
Depression moved in
While I was sleeping,
And now, I can tell,
He’s never leaving.
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I'll probably die
On a Friday,
After I'm finishes
Being beaten down
For being me.
I'll probably die
On a Friday,
Because I always
Feel so alone
And estranged.
I'll probably die
On a Friday,
When I finally
Take the pain
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A Song of Self
I am me, I am myself,
Every part of me is me.
I am unique, I am special.
I am who I am.
My heart is full to the brim,
Overflowing with more love
Than the people around me
Deserve for me to give them.
I am someone who feels deeply,
Someone who has the habit
Of loving far too much
And getting hurt too easily.
Despite my emotional side,
I am stable, mature in my thinking,
Realistic about the world around me
And not stuck in a fairytale.
I am straightforward in my life,
I know where I’m going,
I know what I want to do,
I know who I want to be in the future.
Even though I’ve become a shell,
Someone I wanted not to be
When I was younger,
I have accepted myself for me. 
Despite my depression,
Despite the fact that my mind
Is never settled in one place,
I don’t hate myself anymore. 
I cannot say that I am happy,
As that would be a lie,
But I’m on terms with myself,
I’m on terms with this world. 
I can find happiness in little things,
I can find love
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In school they never taught me
how to deal with the things
inside my head.
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I'm a writer, artist, and English major still trying to find my way through the world. I like to write poems about my misadventures with life and share them with others (you) while I lament over the cost of college. Please enjoy my work.

Thanks for any favorites, I really do appreciate them! And if I favorite and don't comment, it's because I'm lazy or just too busy but trust me, I loved it.

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I apologize for being so inactive lately! School has been tough and my personal life took a turn for the worse recently but I've gotten it back underway and things are finally getting back to normal. Thank you to everyone for the birthday wishes, and if you sent me a note or left me a comment, I am so sorry that I didn't reply. Also thank you to everyone who has left a favorite or a follow, as I just don't have to time to go to each of you and thank you individually. But really, thank you! I should be more active soon, I promise. Just as soon as school isn't eating me alive. Thanks for understanding and being awesome! 
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Morloth88 Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2016   Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch :D
Novelwrite Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the favorite! :D
kiwiootori Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2016  Student Writer
You're very welcome!
Sunflowers-And-Fur Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2016
Happy birthday! :cake:
kiwiootori Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2016  Student Writer
Thank you thank you! I'm sorry I wasn't here to say thank you earlier but I really appreciate you taking the time out of your day to wish me a happy birthday.
yesterdaystears Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2016
Happy Birthday! Hope you have a great day ^.^
kiwiootori Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2016  Student Writer
Thank you so much! I just got the time to read this comment but I really appreciate you taking the time to wish me a happy birthday. Sorry I'm so late replying!
yesterdaystears Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2016
You're very welcome! And don't feel bad about the late reply, I understand that life can get busy ^.^
kiwiootori Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2015  Student Writer
You're welcome!
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